By Laura Curtis

Worry. Fear.
Worry. Fear.
Sleepless nights.
My mind racing—running scenarios over and over.
What if? What now? What will we do?

The concern consumed me. I found myself in tears constantly, pleading in prayer for my son.
“If I can just be inspired to say the right thing.”
“If I can just bear my testimony one more time.”
“If I just send him this scripture or this talk... maybe then things will turn around.”

I repeated this cycle for years.
Can you guess how it turned out?

I lived in a constant state of fear—fear over the choices my son might make, fear for his future, fear for our relationship. You name it, I worried about it. And as my fear grew, my judgment worsened. I wasn’t acting in faith—I was reacting in fear.

Fast forward a few years: some of the things I feared did happen. Others, thankfully, didn’t. Were there disasters along the way? Yes. Absolutely. But what I didn’t see at the time was that I was being led. And now, looking back, I’m grateful.

That experience launched me into something deeper. A journey of learning how to truly trust my Savior, Jesus Christ. Not just believe in Him, but believe Him—trust in His timing, His plan, and what He is capable of.

It was no longer about trying to fix everything or everyone else. It became about changing me.

I started paying attention to my thoughts—especially the ones I clung to when I was emotionally overwhelmed. And I realized something powerful:

I had been living the Law of Perpetual Transmutation—without even knowing it.
This law teaches that circumstances are always shifting—coming and going—based on the thoughts we hold. And I had been holding on to a lot of negative thoughts. I was practicing Negative Faith—imagining, believing, and emotionally experiencing the worst with incredible intensity. I was really good at it.

Now and then, I’d manage to pull my thoughts out of that spiral—and sure enough, some of the fears would fade. But more often, I stayed in the pattern. I kept rehearsing the pain. And I found myself stuck in what I now know is the Bondage Cycle.

Then, I was introduced to Mindset Mastery, the principles of Rare Faith, and the Laws of Thought. And I had a huge realization:

I had been breaking myself against Universal Laws—without even knowing it.

I had read Doctrine & Covenants 130:20–21:

“There is a law, irrevocably decreed in heaven before the foundations of this world, upon which all blessings are predicated… And when we obtain any blessing from God, it is by obedience to that law upon which it is predicated.”

I finally understood that I needed to think differently—to create differently.
I am a creator.
And I wanted to create good.

I wanted to develop True, Positive, Rare Faith.

I’ll forever be grateful to Leslie Householder for teaching that belief—real, positive belief—gathers like an “idea cloud” until it becomes so heavy, the rain has to fall (in the best way).

I now understand that I get to choose what seeds I plant.
What I nurture.
What I allow to grow until it becomes physical reality.

I am the master of my mind and thoughts.

James Allen said it best:

“Good thoughts and actions can never produce bad results; bad thoughts and actions can never produce good results… Men imagine that thought can be kept secret, but it cannot. It rapidly crystallizes into habit, and habit solidifies into circumstance.”

I choose my thoughts.
I choose my circumstances.
And now—I choose to dream.
To plant seeds of faith and nourish them daily.

Is it work to keep my thoughts positive and creative?
Yes.
Is it worth it?
Absolutely.

It might seem easier to let your thoughts run wild, to follow the mental path of least resistance. But where do those thoughts take you? Usually not where you want to go.

So yes—choose your hard.

Leslie teaches that everything in your life is the result of your past dominant thoughts—especially the ones that carried emotion and lived in your heart, whether positive or negative. When I learned that, it hit me like a lightning bolt. It was true.

James Allen puts it this way:

“Every man is where he is by the law of his being; the thoughts which he has built into his character have brought him there, and in the arrangement of his life there is no element of chance, but all is the result of law which cannot err. This is just as true of those who feel ‘out of harmony’ with their surroundings as those who are connected to them “

So every day, I make a choice:
To be the watcher of my thoughts.
To honor the laws.
To stop breaking myself against them—and start using them.

Life is good.
And it just keeps getting better.

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